I'm sorry I suck at updating

School is literally killing me right now. I took on a course load that is way too heavy. But I want to graduate already!!! ugh

Anyway I suck because I haven't updated.
I guess no news is good news?

Well my TMJ is being not so perfect. But it could be the massive amounts of stress and going to bed at 4 am because I'm up studying. Anyway it's been hurting and giving me a migraine. I took a T3 yesterday and one today and it helps but it wears off too fast. Some days I seriously just want to go into the ER and get a shot of something stronger so I can catch a break.

Anyway it's probably due to my lovely elastics. I'm cycling through 3 elastics. One side is suppose to be 24 hours and the other overnight. But every time I switch my jaw gets pulled in a different direction and it's not so fun.

Good news is I see my surgeon this coming tuesday and I see my ortho in 3 weeks i thinkkkk...
Anyway that means I might get the okay for braces off but I don't really care about that right now.
I know you're wondering how could she not want them off already.
As Rhianna was saying, speech therapy is very important for tongue thrusters and I haven't had time to see mine yet so although I've been improving majorly on my tongue thrusting, I still need help. I think my tongue is too big for my mouth, or maybe it's just a lazy tongue from all the years of not staying in it's proper position. Meh.

I need to get on that ASAP.

Anyway I could go on forever about all the crap going on and how confused I am about what I'm even doing with my life but I'll just leave it at that.



I promise next week I'll do a real update and put some new photos up because my face is finally no longer swollen from surgery #2.

Hope everyone is well, and remember this whole surgery is just a temporary part of your life, it gets so much better once it's all over.

Terra

Jaw infection update

So I went to my surgeons office yesterday to have my infection checked out. My surgeon wasn't in but the surgeon I saw said that my surgeon was talking about possible going back in and cleaning everything out. I guess something is going on in my face that keeps causing this infection. Im on antibiotics but feeling really shitty still. I have to take them every 6 hours and im not allowed to lay down for 30 minutes so that means no going back to bed or taking them right before bed. My face is really sore and I have a huge hole in my  upper gums that is draining the infection out. This is so not fun.

150 awful days left

I thought I would greet you all with a horrible side profile shot. I feel like my chin has gotten weaker, it has no definition at all. You can see how my upper jaw is retrognathic, and well the convex in my profile.
Pretty much my face looks stupid. I don't remember it looking this stupid, I guess the braces are doing their job to make me as horrible as possible before the big day.

It's 150 days away from my booked surgery, but I'm still hoping I get an earlier date because I don't think I can handle waiting any longer.

This year has been HORRIBLE!!!!
I feel so not like myself, I hate that I have to spend my university years in braces, and I hate that I look 15!

This year has sucked in so many ways, but in the end I managed to get through another year of university and somehow my boyfriend hasn't ran off to another country to get away from the crazy jaw surgery woman. Neither of us expected  life to change so much throughout our relationship. I feel like every aspect of my life has changed. I stopped working, went to university full time, change my hair, stopped going out, became a huge nerd, GOT BRACES!!! (worst part by far!), my family may have gotten more crazy and the past two years I have been dreaming of moving out, but my education would suffer, and I really want to finish school as soon as possible.

I'm sorry, this is the only place I can come to complain about how shitty life is right now.
What it comes down to is that I am just not happy with myself right now.

Sometimes I hate myself for deciding to do this, but my jaw is so off, so I know it's for the best.

Days need to go by faster!!!!
.......
I'm going to guess its been over 375 days in braces, surgery is 150 days away at the worst case.
It still feels like a lifetime.

Lets all mourn the loss of the old Terra. Feels like a lifetime ago...

Pictures

F*#%!!!!!!!!

What the hell is wrong with receptionists?????
I've called my surgeons office 4 times today.
First I was told there is an appointment on Thursday, so I moved my other appointments for school.
I call back and they seem to have given that appointment away.
WTFFF
But wait, then I get told they'll call me back, which doesn't happen. So I call them back.
They seem to have no idea what appointment I'm talking about, confuse me with another patient telling me something about my records being there. Tell me I already booked my appointment, and then realize they are talking to the wrong person.
Who the hell hires these people?
So I explain everything to her, and then she says okay, I'll go check with the girls. Hangs up on me.
I don't get a call back so I call after about an hour and a half and they are closed.
WHAT THE F#%@!!!!!!!

I'm going to call back tomorrow and if this persists I'm calling the director at my orthodontist clinic and having them call because they referred me to this surgeon.

I'm not the happiest person right now after spending all day trying to get an appointment with my surgeon and a surgery date.

I also found it pretty strange when my orthodontist, who is suppose to give me the okay for booking surgery asked me if I have a surgery date yet when I went in today.

I understand these places have a lot of patients, but I think someone who is having double jaw surgery has the right to get a straight answer about their appointment or at least a call back.

Worst customer service ever!!!!!