Saturday, November 26, 2011

Profile Pre and post braces for decompensation

NEW VIDEO, sorry its not that exciting or anything, and it took a week to upload

Sunday, November 20, 2011


Saturday, November 19, 2011


Hey everyone!
So I'm learning more and more to just accept the braces and just deal with it.
It does suck.
So I had a pretty good week, super busy but finally made time to go out and have fun for once.
I don't know why but it still surprises me when guys try to talk to me even though I have the braces.
It sort of makes me even happier for all of this to be over.
I feel like my life has changed in so many ways the past while.
The whole jaw surgery process in itself is a huge change, I was always really happy with myself and having braces and now a lisp that gets worse all the time is pretty annoying.
Oddly enough most people say its cute, meh!

I'm thinking that this next year I'm going to just really focus on myself and while going through this whole process I'm going to try to change other things for the better too.
I feel like I'm rambling.....
anyway I didnt take any pictures because I look very gross right now. My bite is so off now.

The one thing I hate about the clear braces is that when the elastics discolour it makes my teeth look yellowish. ewww
Anyway guys I go to the orthodontist on the 7th of December and I'm hoping hes like "Yes you are ready for surgery!!!"
Otherwise i'm going to go home and cry because I will never be out of these braces.
Thanks for reading my nonsense.

Monday, November 7, 2011


Hey everyone.
I promise I will respond to my comments soon.
I've been slacking

Just wanted to update,
I have been taking T3s to deal with the pain, yes I have a bunch left from my wisdom teeth surgery and I'm taking those because extra strength advil and tylenol does nothing at all now.
and I have like 5 million things due for school the next month, and I have zero time to be suffering from TMJ pain and headaches.

I really wish some people in my life understood what its like to have horrible jaw pain allll the time!!!
It takes a huge chunk of my life in a way people don't understand. the lack of sleep, the trouble focusing, the avoiding noise, and crowds and anything that makes the headaches worse.
On top of all this I really do spend all of my time on school because by the end of it i'm so tired and sore that i just want to go to my bed and lay there with a hot pack under my jaw.
I'm so tired to having to apologize to friends for not being able to go out and do things, and yes cancelling on short notice because of my jaw pain. Unfortunately I can't determine when and how much pain I'll be in on a day to day basis.

Oh how I wish I could be like any normal 25 year old, and not have to worry about this annoying jaw and keep wishing that I'll get a damn surgery date.
Never in a million years would I have thought I would WANT to have surgery, and trust me I want this so bad.
My bottom jaw is clearly on sideways now. It looks so weird. I spend a lot of time looking at it in the mirror, trying to understand why it is off to one side, how do these things happen?
Anyway my disk on one side is either sliding out or really swollen or both. I can feel it when I touch my jaw. The other side is just so beyond messed up. It feels really good to open it and hear it crack but it just ends up giving me more pain afterwards.

I do realize how lucky I am to have only a jaw issue and not some seriously illness. I am grateful for that indeed.
But this is my little rant place and when I know no one else in the world will understand, I come here.
Thanks for listening

Wednesday, November 2, 2011

Less than 6 months to go!!

Hello readers and friends :)

So I just thought I would do a fast update. I went to the orthodontist a few weeks ago and had a power chain put on the bottom. My midline looks really off and my bottom teeth look like they're swooping outward. The jaw pain hasn't been too bad the last couple weeks which is nice. I haven't had to take any painkillers in a while. I realized a few days ago that my jaw surgery is in 5.something months which is getting pretty close considering it felt like yesterday when I had my braces put on, but that was over half a year ago!!!!
I'll attach some pictures just to show where I'm at.

I know I have some readers who are from other countries and I'm actually applying to do exchange in Australia in 2013. I'm looking at the university of western sydney since I wont have to pay international student fees there, I just pay my tuition to my school. I might look into some other schools too but the application process is more complicated for other schools in australia. I realized that since the term starts in jan or feb, I'll be out of my braces in time to go!!!
I'll update on how this all plays out in time.

Hope everyone is doing well and that you still enjoyed goodies despite having braces on halloween lol